Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Your voice

I hear your voice

Like a harp

Playing so beautifully

In my soul! <3

you dont deserve me

You don’t deserve me!!

You took the beat from my heart

The breath from my lungs

The thought from my mind

And the voice from my tongue

You stole the seed from my fruit

The tears from my eyes

Never again will I

Believe all of your lies

You are the scars on my arms

The bruise on my spirit

I once opened up my heart

But you’re no longer permitted near it

Too many nights

Where I would lie awake and cry

Too many nights

Where I wanted to die

But now I can see

I can finally see you

You’re the opposite of what I want

I want something new

You don’t deserve my love

Im glad I can finally see

You don’t deserve what I can provide

You simply don’t deserve me!!

You are my rock

You are my rock!

You are the way

The truth

And the life

Without you I

Am empty inside

You are my rock

My savior

And my lord

I am so lost without you

You have touched my heart

And it will never be the same

I know I was made

To be loved by you!

WHY?

Why?

All I ask is why?

This always happens

Im forced to lay here and cry!

Im so tired of this pain

I can’t take it anymore

Im about to go insane

Is this thing called life really worth it?

All it consists of is misery and hurt

Im without a rope in a bottomless pit

Titanic

Titanic

They said even God cant sink this ship

Oh were they wrong

Into the water the weak started to spill

But some stood strong

Impossible to get out

Trapped and caged in

Some prayed

And others continued to sin

Women and children get off the boat

The ones who stayed were men

They hugged their loved ones and sent them off

In hopes to once see them again

Pandemonium broke loose

They all started to fight

They would kill each other for life jackets

For a chance to survive the night

The boat tipped and the rest fell in

It broke into several large chunks

Down to the depths of the cold dark sea

The unsinkable ship has finally sunk!

Till death do us part

I have my head in the clouds

And my heart on my sleeve

But do I love you enough

To watch you leave

You are not happy

You need to go away

But I am not happy

Unless you are here to stay

Do I love you enough

To be unhappy forever

You will be happy

While my heart is severed

They say if you love someone

Let them go

And in time if they come back

Then you were destined to be so

But I don’t think im strong enough

Without you by my side

I would be a blind man

Without his dog to guide

Although it hurts

And I don’t want to

I love you and want you to be happy

So I need to let go of you

Even if that means that you aren’t with me

And your life turns out great

There is no point in fighting it

You can’t fight fate

So if you meet a guy and get married

I’ll move on or at least ill try

But the reality of my heart is

Ill love you until I die…

Those lies

Those lies

The words that come out of your mouth

Are sharp spikes that pierce my soul

Those lies that you utter

Those lies

Those lies that you utter

I don’t need you

You have shown your true colors

They are painfully deceitful

I refuse to let you hurt me again

By those lies

Those lies

Those lies that made you seem so innocent

When you were really going behind my back

Those lies that showed that you loved me

When you were making out with my friend

Those lies

Those lies that made me cry

No more tears will be shed

No more

No more lies

Those lies

Those lies that crushed my heart

It is finally becoming healed

And I realize that I don’t need you

I don’t need

Those lies

Those lies!!

The ultimate sacrifice

The Ultimate Sacrifice

He made the blind see

He found all the lost

He saved us all

By dieing on the cross

Those without sin

Shall cast the first stone

No matter what happens

You will never be alone

All the good and bad

That happens everyday

Jesus will be with you

Every step of the way

Even when you hate your life

And think you cant be loved anymore

Just think about his love

Jesus thought you were to die for!

The only way

Nailed to some wood

And risen to the sky

He loves us so much

Jesus chose to die

Our beautiful savior

The slaughtered lamb

Eternal damnation would be our fate

If it wasn’t for this man

Every one of our sins

Was felt on that day

Thy messiah Jesus Christ

He is love, truth, the ONLY way

As dusk went to dawn

The deed was done

We were saved from ourselves

Thanks to the holy son

Buried and left alone

They wanted everyone to forget

Belittled did they know

The magnitude of his debt

Three days later

Happened exactly what he said

His heart started beating

Christ rose from the dead!

The new me?

My heart opens up

Just to get crushed

I wish that I

Didn’t care so much

This pain that it feels

Each and every day

Is taking its toll

It needs to go away

No longer shall I

Tear down my wall

She is just another brick

It must stand tall

I give love out

And in return I get hurt

Girls drop me and change guys

Like they put on a new shirt

What is wrong with me

There has to be something

Maybe its because my outside smiles

While my inside is worth nothing

Girls don’t like nice guys

Nice guys finish last

I need to rewrite my future

And forget about my past

If all they truly want

Is just another jerk

Ill just change my personality

And hopefully that will work

I just want to be accepted

To be loved by a special girl

One I can have forever

I just want my priceless pearl

I would do anything in my power

To have a relationship that stays strong

Even if it means completely changing

Because who I am now is obviously wrong!

The day of the dance

Today was the day

The day of the dance

But I could not take you

Your father won’t give me a chance

We had a plan

That your parents can’t ever know

We both took a different date

I took Marlee, and you took Costanzo

They can’t stop me

From taking a different girl

You looked so stunning

Like a priceless pearl

We at least got to

Slow dance to our song

That short time felt

Like it was a hundred years long

It was so magical

And as intense as the sun

Like pistons in an engine

We danced as one

Soon enough

These days will go by

And then again we will be a unit

Just you and I! <3

Tear drop compared to the ocean

This wait compared to eternity

Is like a tear drop compared to the ocean

Such a small time that is absolutely worth it

Because for you no one can come close to my devotion! <3

Suicidal love

I lay here with my heart ripped in two

There is not a moment where I don’t think of you

I can’t stand this pain anymore

Never have I felt this way about anyone before

How can this happen, we are meant to be

I wish there was somehow I could make you see

I am convinced that you are the one

Now I stare down the barrel of this gun

Holding the trigger with precision grip

Just wondering what would if be like if my finger slipped

I am nothing without you by my side

There are countless nights I have done nothing but cry

This suicidal love is overtaking my head

If I cant have you then Id rather be dead

Life isn’t worth living if we aren’t a pair

Friends just inst enough, it makes my heart tare

Pills in my left hand and alcohol in the right

Knowing that im not going to live through the night

Looking at your picture and listening to depressing love songs

In my arms is precisely where you belong

Pop a pill and take a shot

Put me in the ground so I can begin to rot

Pain with the intensity of a wave that is tidal

Love is pain and it makes me suicidal!

Stuck like cement

I miss I miss

I miss my love

My feelings for you

Are like the man’s above

These days are passing

Like cars on the street

Every time that im with you

My heart skips a beat

So I need to cherish

Each and every moment

Baby im waiting for you

Like my feet are in cement <3

Set me on fire

Set me on fire!

Your voice seems so distant

I need to hear a sign

There is only one voice I hear

And that voice is mine

I know you are with me

I confidently believe that

Even so I often wonder

Lord where are you at

I no longer can feel you

As I go throughout my day

I repeatedly I find myself

Not having the aspiration to pray

There is only one thing

That I absolutely desire

Lord light my match

And set me on fire!

Palms to the sky

Truly living with

Your hands wide open

Means you have to be vulnerable

Even when you’re broken

You want to hold on

You want to squeeze tight

But when you loosen up your fingers

God promises that you’ll be all right

I know that it’s hard

And it’s easy to doubt that you can

Fear overwhelms you, but don’t worry

Because God has a plan

So put your palms to the sky

And your fingers straight out

And have trust in the lord

Without a single doubt

Because he unconditionally loves you

And has planned nothing but the best

So let go of what’s holding you back

And put yourself to the test

You can no longer battle against yourself

If you get rid of your shield and sword

The only way to be completely at peace

Is to fully trust in the lord!

PAIN

Did it hurt when you fell from Heaven like a dart

Because it sure did when you broke my heart

You’re an angel sent from above

With intentions of a demon with a lack of love

They say we have to play the cards that we’re dealt

But this pain is the worse I have ever felt

I can’t speak, drink, sleep, or eat

You’re a thoughtless emotionless piece of meat

You said you loved me but you of coarse would lie

Now im forced to lay here and cry

I look at my arm and it reminds me of you

The scars that are there show that my pain is true

Every single thing makes me think of the time we shared

Back when you pretended that you actually cared

I can’t believe I asked you to be my wife

I will never love anyone ever again in my life

And it’s all because of you and how you made me feel

This life blows and this pain is certainly real!

Pain is love, love is pain

This pain I feel

It is so deep

Im stuck in darkness

The light I seek

The hole in my heart

It hurts so bad

As soon as I wake up

I am instantly sad

This depression im in

Is getting worse and worse

Im afraid that eventually

It’s going to put me in a hearse

It’s ironic how I have so much love

For you that it causes me pain

Im waiting for you because I have

Noting to lose but everything to gain

So I have to hold on

No matter how much I want to die

I have to stay strong

I have to try

Even though the weight on my heart

Must at least weigh a ton

It will be worth it when it’s all said and done!

Our first kiss

Our First Kiss

We share our first kiss

And I walk through the door

I stand in amazement

As my jaw hits the floor

I never knew that I could be

Put into such a daze

But I guess that’s why they say

God works in mysterious ways

I think I had a smile

About ten miles wide

I pretty much was weightless

And felt all tingly inside

This girl is like no other

Girl I have met before

She is so near perfect

And I want to see her more

I thought I wanted that

But he showed me I wanted this

I’m so glad the lord brought us together

And gave us our first kiss!

Not worthy

Not Worthy

As I lay and listen

I get this feeling

How great is our God

He is so healing

The sensation I feel

From the man above

He doesn’t judge

He has unconditional love

He has had a plan for me

Since before I was conceived

From all the hardships I have encountered

To all the goals I have achieved

He gives me breath

He makes my heart beat

I am not worthy

To even wash his feet

He sacrificed his son

To prevent me from eternal damnation

So I will spread his glorious word

Throughout the entire nation!

Never ending cycle of emotions

Never ending cycle of mixed emotions

Im broken, it hurts

I have very little self worth

Two halves that fell apart

Because I opened up my heart

My love for you was real

Now pain is all I feel

I’ve learned my lesson

It won’t happen again

My barrier is built up

It’ll protect me from evil women

No more lies are to be believed

My eyes are no longer blind

I can see exactly who you are

There are better things that I can find

But wait my love for you is true

Come back I miss us im sorry I forgive you

I know you cheated but that’s okay

That was the past let’s just live in present day

You say you love me and I believe

Then the next day I watch you leave

I’ve learned my lesson

It won’t happen again

My barrier is built up

It’ll protect me from evil women

No more lies are to be believed

My eyes are no longer blind

I can see exactly who you are

There are better things that I can find

In time I get better, I find the strength to move on

I can finally cope with the fact that you are now gone

Then out of the blue you call me

And you say that you made a mistake and your sorry

Im hesitant for a second and then I decide

That I am nothing without you by my side

So I tear down my wall and let you back in my life

A few years go by when I ask you to be my wife

You tear up for a second and then you accept

Little did I know it would be my biggest regret

You make me so happy

Will you marry me

You are my clear water

I can finally see

Our past is our past

And there shall it remain

We are two completely new people

We won’t make the same mistake again

I love you so much

And I want to be with you forever

Our story can surely prove

That there is nothing that we cannot endeavor

We stand up on the alter and I offer you my soul

Then out of nowhere I hear a whisper and my emotions take their toll

The voice says that you have been cheating

I fall to the floor as my heart takes its last painful beating

I go into a rage and start to lose my mind

Im just glad I found out before my hand made those papers get signed

Im done, I give up, I lose all hope

Never letting anyone else in is the only way ill cope

I’ve learned my lesson

It won’t happen again

My barrier is built up

It’ll protect me from evil women

No more lies are to be believed

My eyes are no longer blind

I will never ever let anyone else in

You have helped me make up my mind!

My heart beats for you

My heart beats for you!

I long to feel your touch

You fingers

Once more laced in mine

My love for you is eternal

It stands the tolls of time

As Nicholas Sparks says

“Something worthwhile is never easy”

But “you never figured out how to love”

As quoted by Weezy

For me this is hard

Your are making poor choices

You never trusted me

And listened to all

Of the other voices

I wish you would believe me

When I tell you that you’re my only one

My love for you is extreme

It’s more intense than the sun

I pray that you come to your senses

And realize that my love is true

My heart beats your name

It only beats for you! <3

My girl

My Girl

My girl and I met on just a random day

My girl said hi and I said hey

My girl liked me and I liked her

My girl dated me and made me mature

My girl is one of a kind

My girl I will always stand behind

My girl is my life

My girl will one day be my wife

My girl is stunningly beautiful

My girl is absolutely wonderful

My girl makes me smile

My girl is oh so worthwhile

My girl is my best friend

My girl I will love till the end

My girl loves my bod

My girl is a servant of God

My girl I married on a beautiful summer night

My girl gave me hope in sight

My girl will always have my heart

My girl and I will be together till death do us part

My girl and I died when the clock stroke eleven

My girl and I will spend eternity together in Heaven!

Miles out of my way

I go miles out of my way

Just in hopes to kiss you

Then we have to go our separate ways

And then I have to miss you too

Even when we are together

I miss you at that time it’s like a tease

Because eventually I will have to leave

These days pass as quick as a sneeze <3

Love search

I search out in the distance

For the girl that I love

As I move through the crowd

I start to push and shove

So many unfamiliar faces

None to yours that match

Our hearts beat in unison

Because they are attached

Until we meet I am hurt

My soul is in constant pain

But the agony is complete worth it

Because our hearts are one the same

So I long for you my darling

If I have to, I’ll search until I die

In time the day will come

When we are together just you and I! <3

Love like the ocean

I get a bottle

And go to the ocean

Write down my heart

And seal up my devotion

I toss it into

The violent bay

Knowing that it will

Come back someday

My body is the bottle

And my love is sealed tight

Each hour makes us less apart

And a new day comes every midnight

The bay is world around us

People telling us we shouldn’t wait

You parents may be able to forbid us for now

But it’s inevitable, you can’t fight fate

Therefore my bottle is indestructible

And can’t be tampered by any other man

The power of love is indescribable

So it can only be opened by my hand

And I choose to open that bottle

In 633 more days

The day that you turn eighteen

My bottle will no longer float astray

Once again I will finally be whole

My heart won’t have a crease

Because at last I will have you again

My missing puzzle piece! <3

Love is true not a myth

Some say love

Doesn’t exist

They say it’s not true

They say it’s a myth

But that’s not possible

I know for a fact it’s true

Never have I felt for another human being

The way I feel for you

So I do believe that love is real

But for me there are two different kinds

Of coarse there is the emotion that many experience

But love is also an action; to this many are blind

We can say and think all that we want

But I believe that just makes love a word

You need to do and act out your love

You need to be seen not just heard

Give them gifts

Just for the heck of it

And be there for them to

Take care of them when they are sick

Hold their hand while

You are walking down the street

And after that long walk

Offer to massage their feet

So baby I do love you

Anyone who says otherwise is absurd

And hopefully I prove it through my actions

And not just by my word

But I think this wait of

Eternity is a pretty good start

Of showing that I love you

From the bottom of my heart <3

lost love

I can’t wait to start

Start the rest of my life

Where I am your husband

And you are my wife

Where I put a ring on your finger

And we both say I do

And where I will promise

To always love you

You are my rock

To whom I lean on

Apart I am broken

But when together I am strong

I know I am not worthy

And don’t deserve you at all

Yet you still go beneath yourself

And with together we stand tall

You are my love

Who I want to have and to hold

When you are healthy

And especially when you have a cold

I know I am nothing

Without you by my side

I am 100% lost

Like im walking cross eyed

So baby you’re my eyes

My heart and my soul

Hopefully eventually we will be back together

And the wait will finally take its toll! <3

let your heart do the talkng

Let your heart do the talking

Zip your lips

And let your heart

Do the talking

Let love overrun

Let love overcome

Let love overflow

Spill out around the world

just a friend

Just a friend

Or something more

That is the question

That is in my heart’s core

I know she likes me

And I like her

But there is always that wonder

If we will have a future

I don’t know maybe

Only time will tell

It’s sometimes confusing

Into love I have fell

She is a great person on the inside and out

My insecurities take over

And sometimes give me doubt

How could she like me

We are complete opposite

It’s like I’m a Montague

And she is a Capulet

But maybe that’s just it

We are like Romeo and Juliet

So there is a possibility

I shouldn’t lose hope just yet

There will be a different ending

If we end up together

We won’t die young

We will live long lives happily ever after!

I need you like air

Baby I love you

I need you like air

Without you I am nothing

Just full of pain and despair

My heart was yours

For the taking

You chose to preserve it

That’s why it’s not breaking

For some, this wait

May seem pretty hard

But I can get through them

Because I have faith in the lord

Yes they are hard for me

I’ve been depressed ever since

But I know if I wait it out

You will be my princess and ill be your prince <3

I long for my Juliet..

I long for my Juliet

When it comes to me with girls

There’s a different flavor every week

As soon as one doesn’t work out

Another one I try to seek

I can’t stand the feeling

Of being all alone

I need a girl by my side

I can’t be on my own

I have so much love to give

And in return I get pain

I have become so numb

Learned lessons I have gained

My weakness is

That I care too much

I open my heart up

The first instant our lips touch

But it never works out

I just end up getting played

Im stuck out in the cold

And this storm will never fade

I’ve been searching for my soul mate

And I obviously haven’t found her yet

Just call me Romeo

I long for my Juliet!

heavenly father

Heavenly Father

Heavenly father I pray to thee

Please help my soul be set free

My heart is full of sin and hate

I wish to be saved before it’s too late

Jesus did die on the cross for my sins

Now I know so I wish to be born again!

Heavenly father I have so much hope

You forgave my sins like you washed them with soap

I wish to convert every boy and girl

And teach about you throughout the world

Accepting you was the best thing that I have ever done

I never knew that It could be so much fun!

Heavenly father your are my king

I cant thank you enough for everything

You have changed me into a very good guy

I will serve you lord till the second I die

I will do my best to follow your son

And spread Christianity to everyone!

Heavenly father I will always serve

No matter how much the road seems to curve

My love for you will grow 24/7

Until I finally make it to Heaven

It doesn’t matter how steep the path gets

The word of God I will never forget!

God's voice

Gods Voice

I long to hear your voice

Yours and only yours

Im in a crowd

And I can’t distinguish your sound

I want to calm the monkeys in the tree

But it’s hard when pandemonium is your life

I need to hear your voice

If only you would talk

Or if you are, I could understand your words

And know that it’s from my lord

Father please subdue my ears

With the sound waves of your mouth

I want to do as you say

But how can I when I cant here you

God speak to my soul!

Get out of jail free card

This place is not a home

I feel like im all alone

Deep in the obis of my shell

Locked in my little jail cell

I can no longer sit and be quiet

Im about to start a riot

I must tear down these walls

And make a break for it down the hall

With Christ as my key, ill pick this lock

As he is my glory, he is my rock

Jesus shows that there is life outside this prison

Following him was my greatest decision

He is the lamp to my feet; he’ll guide my way

Forbidden love

Our love is forbidden

You can’t be mine

But baby I will wait for you

Until the end of time

The way my heart feels

When I am with you

Makes the wait worth it

My love for you is true

I am a Montague

You are a Capulet

I will be your Romeo

If you be my Juliet

There wont be a dagger for you

And poison for me

Rather we will be

Together for eternity!

Christ

When I look at the cross

Tears form in my eye

All the pain the he felt

Jesus chose to die

He died for each

One of my sins

Just so I could

Be born again

He did it for me

Because his love is true

I can’t imagine the pain

That he went through

I would be stupid

Not to follow this man

I choose to reach out

And take his hand!

Beauty and the beast

I find myself constantly staring at you

From across the room

Thinking to myself

That’s the girl I want to marry

You are as close to perfect

That my mind could possibly conceive

You are everything I look for in a girl

Down to every last cell

It’s unfortunate

That I am way out of your league

You are way better than me

It is the true story

Of beauty and the beast…

Baby you're my light

Baby you’re my light

Seconds feel like

Hours like days

This thing called life

Seems like a never ending maze

It’s so frustrating

And it’s making me depressed

I’ve lost the only person

Who’s ever known me best

Nothing in life is beautiful

Without you by my side

Everything is so foreign

I need my tour guide

Without you I was blinded

You let the way with light

So baby I need you back

I miss having my sight

These days will pass relatively quickly

That’s all it is, is time

And hopefully you wait for me like I waited for you

And you can once again be mine <3

Embers

Warming up the fire

The embers in my heart

Two souls uniting

After being forever apart

They say two wrongs

Can never make a right

But we are meant to be

You are the moon to my night

Supposedly soul mates

Don’t exist

But when they checked

Our relationship they must have missed

Baby I love you

With all of my being

You keep me on cloud nine

And always singing!

Cling on to Jesus

My depression is set

Like it’s stuck in a vice

This is terrible

It can’t suffice

The way I feel is horrible

Something has to change

The thoughts through my mind

Must rearrange

It is certainly not healthy

To live life this way

Pessimism stops now

Optimism starts today

So im going to cling on to Jesus

Wit all of my might

And know in the end

I will be alright!

Don't judge a book by its cover

Don’t judge a book by its cover

There comes a time in your life

When you hit a fork in the road

You have a decision to make

To go one way or the other

You have to choose without being told

Told which way is the right way

And which one is the dead end

This decision affects your future

Chance is your only depend

One false move and its checkmate

Game over, finished, you’re done

Your life will dissolve so quickly

Like you’re running head first into the sun

So you analyze both directions

One path dark woods the other clear

But you still are indecisive

You look like headlights in front of a deer

The clear path looks too simple

It’s obvious which one you should take

But yet you choose to embark through the woods

Without a doubt you are certain

That was the right move to make

Little did you know that you were correct

And that the clear path was in fact a trap

That was the way to emptiness

You would be lost and without a map

The way you chose is hard

There are many obstacles that you have to face

Your predestined path was almost certain

But you decided that that wouldn’t be the case

This path is the path to salvation

In the end its worth the any suffer

So before you choose which path to take

Remember; don’t judge a book by its cover!

Betrayal

BETRAYAL

Stabbed in the back

Blood to the floor

This wound is

Gushing

Knife in my chest

Invoked by a whore

My heart is

Crushing

Betrayed by a kiss

From my “friend” to my girl

My anger is

Raging

Nice fresh wounds

From the ones that I love

My body is

Hurting

Deal with integrity

Or confront with violence

My mind is

Racing

Never speak again

Or learn to forgive

My subconscious is

Deciding

Drop them both

Like a hot coal in your hand

Im done with your

Betrayal

Betrayal!